The Great Wall of BABA!!!!

Today it started off as all normal. The alarm rang up at 6.15 I resistively opened my eyes, snoozed the alarm twice until at 6.35 I realised it couldn't be snoozed further as the bus could miss. And then running around the two rooms with a stamp of daily routine, then put the iPod earphones in and close the eyes once in the bus till it reaches Metro station, removal of earphones, catching the Metro and finally getting down at the desired station. A bit of a walk in cold (yes, the winter is early this year), with some small conversations with friends and then punching in, getting the lift, today with no cute girl. I am the last one to leave the lift as usual (my seat is on top i.e 5th floor). I hang the jacket, start the PC and go to washroom. I come back, I start the monitor, I touch the screen, keyboard, mouse, CPU and telephone and touch my heart, as usual. Ctrl+Alt+Del, login. Open Microsoft Outlook and Bang!

I see a mail, “Sad News”. My heart misses a beat. I know what is coming! Rather I feel I knew it was going to come a long time back! With my theist-self praying, I open the mail.
“XXXX XXXX is no more now!”

I swallowed. I didn't feel a thing for a moment. I was awestruck. When I heard about her hospitalisation a month ago, I could not believe it. When I heard about her condition then, I was in immense pain. I know the pain of being in hospital at a young age, and above that she was serious, which I never was. I felt like flying to India and meet her parents then, to tell them everything would be fine. I was in deep thought that day. Somewhere I felt, it was about to be over. I cursed myself for that. I didn't actually knew what was her condition, I never knew and yet I felt such a bad thing. I sweared myself within, for such a thought. Negativity can drive a human being to such a level too? Why was I thinking about her so much. Was it because, I had been through some tribulations couple of years back? Was it because I had lost a friend just under one year ago? Was it because, I knew her and knew her just more than acquainted or was it because I once had a crush on her? I never knew! Maybe it was a mixture of everything.
Then I felt it better not to think about it much, as when I think, I tend to be negative. And I knew, my prayers would as usual go unanswered. I sometimes feel like a hypocrite, when I say I am not a theist (Note: It's not I am atheist) and then when I see someone in pain I start praying to God, whom I hate the most. Because, this God is the thing that is the root cause of every problem humans are facing. It's the same God we should go away from in order to reach within ourselves or others. And yet, the teachings from childhood become prominent, when I become helpless in helping others. I start praying, knowing the futility behind it. I was so desperate, I even told one of my theist friend who didn't know her, to pray for her, thinking his God may listen to him.
I never felt so desperate, as I was that day. Some days later, the Indian Bombings came into light and my world of thoughts was struck with the utter uncertainty of life. I realised, how futile the desperate attempts of Common people are to save their lives. Their lives are after all in the hands of those who are cruel, unmerciful and greedy, just like God. They rule the world and the lives of common men. Its them, who are the real men of God. They are Yamdoots. And then, my desperation found a little peace in thinking that, it was never in my hands to do anything for anyone and the life and death is a mere incident. I came over everything, my turbulent past, my futile attempts to live the life the way I want to be. My sympathyworthy attempts to attain certain attainable things and failing due to completely unwarranted obstructions or calamities. But, I couldn't completely come over the serious illness of this Girl, with whom I merely had three to four conversations and three to four telephone conversations also some email correspondence. The reason was, she was very young (Can't tell you the age!) she was beautiful, intelligent and very friendly with everyone. It was a big loss for everyone who knew her. I could not help but think of her parents' condition while she was in Hospital and now, I can't dare think of it.
Her sad demise has disturbed me thoroughly and I now feel a bit more strengthened as my ill faith in God seems to increase. All I can do is wish The Departed a soothing journey ahead!

Two days ago, one of my friends mentioned a topic which he generally doesn't. He was actually concerned about National Security and roles of current National Security units. He ranted about the working methodology of the present units and then sighed saying, I wish we had SWAT and FBI and such. Next moment, I told him, it's no use, we currently have enough intelligence at our hands, maybe we need more technology, but even that won't help until we fight the root of terror, that is Mentality of the terrorists. He told me, they are brainwashed. I told him, how do they get so easily? I mean, how can engineers working in leading software companies become so brainwashed, that they get ready to kill thousands of innocents, some of which may have been in close contact with them in everyday life?
On this, my friend shocked me by saying, “It's the same reason, why an Oncologist struggles for Ram Mandir!”
I felt speechless. I mean, when some responsible and so called independent thinkers display such shocking remarks, you can do nothing but wait for the extinction of the unfortunate community.I still tried to defend the case My friend is a Hindu and as far as I know, he is Atheist. But still, is the comparison just enough. Let's see.

1.What do the Ram Mandir andolaks do?
They hold Peace Marches. They fill the trains and go to Ayodhya to perform Karseva. Karseva means to give a hand in the building of Sacred Ram Temple. The Ram Temple in Ayodhya becomes far more Sacred for Hindus given the fact that Prabhu Ram was born in Ayodhya(Some more independent thinkers may argue over this fact, but it is proven to be true as I read in one article and I suppose there is one website too.) Same, as Jerusalem is Sacred for Christians and Mecca for Muslims. The Archeologists have confirmed that the Controversial site does contain the evidences of existence of an ancient Ram Temple, that existed before the Babri Masjid. Babri Masjid was built by Invader Babar, looting and distroying the Sacred Temple for Hindus. One fact worth mentioning, there is tomb of Babar, that exists in his native Afghanistan and for his cruelty, the locals still slap the tomb with leg-gears. And here, where he did not even belong, people kill for his honour. And moreover, some people want to defend it.
Now please can anyone give me some numbers of people killed during the Ram andolan.

2.Ok, I hear a group saying, was destroying Babri Masjid was a right way of protesting, as we become equal with Babar?
Agreed, not the most correct way, but yes it was truly symbolic. It actually was the protest against a 45 year long Congress Regime, which even after creating the biggest problem of Pakistan, continued to run Muslim Appeasement policies, in turn making Muslims more and more alienated from the mainstream, loading them with facilities and Minority benefits. This was hurting the Majority of Hindu population, which sustained, The Direct Action, Razakar Movement and yet forgot and forgave and allowed the assimilation process to speed up. Tell me was a mere collapse of Babri Masjid is comparable to looting, destroying the Ram Temple and forceful conversions therein? Is filling the trains to go to Ayodhya and perform Karseva chanting Ram's name, comparable to Direct Action and Razakar Movement? Is comparing Software engineer Bomb blast mastermind with oncologist Ram Mandir supporter justified?

3. My friend also made some accusations as to Bajrang Dal, was reportedly found doing some unsuccessful attempts at making Bombs.
OK, so who found it? He says, NSG. National Security Guards. The same person was accusing National Security agencies some time ago in the same debate. Why are these agencies so fast and such intelligent, when a Hindu Organisation prepares Bombs and that to unsuccessfully. Whereas, when Muslim Organisations import the bomb techniques and technicians from abroad, prepare the bombs and even blast them killing thousands of innocents, where is this NSG? Are they waiting for orders from their superiors as to how to distract public? All these accusations of Hindu bombings and all are farce. They are merely to prove a point that not all are Muslims, as the Muslim Vote banks are hurt tremendously after arrests of accused in Bomb Blasts. Similar thing is happening now, take a look. Ulemas in India are holding a conference on How the Police are targeting only Muslims. This is worth a laugh. If Muslims are bombing and that too hiding and getting refuge in Muslim colonies, then who else would the police target. Or do they expect Hindus to be arrested for everything that happens in the country.
I don't deny that no particular community as a whole is criminal and no particular community is sane. But, the fact remains that The intensity with which the entire society reacts to these anti Humanity bombings, isn't present in the reaction of the Muslim community, rather you can find a stream of thoughts, that actually sympathises with the culprits and their intentions, which is tremendously dangerous for the sovereignity and integrity of the nation. The Muslim community has to introspect and purge out the anti national elements and lend no support to their activities, neither directly nor morally. Because, this wave of anti nationalism, threatens to drive out even the most common, law fearing and nation loving Muslims out of the mainstream. Imagine, Muslim educated youth found in bombings, how much this would affect the Job opportunities for genuine ones. Some sane people, would argue that any educated Hindu can even be a criminal? As these people have formed a habbit of counter stating. But the answer is there is a difference in Criminal and Terrorist. Criminals do everything for their own and terrorists for a dangerous cause. Criminals do not challenge the integrity of the society, but Terrorists do. So stop defending terrorists on false grounds.

4. Coming back to the bajrang dal bombings debate.
I agree, there might have been some incidents that took place. There was even one incident with Sanatan Prabhat being accused of bombings. But you see, the bombs were amateur and foolish attempts at mere insults. Though, these are dangerous indications of a changing mentality of hindus. Who drove them to that level of extremity. Constant attacks on Hindu community's rights and constant Muslim appeasement policies have led to this. I can hear, frail voices of we should not equal them and “an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind”. But to all those sane people out there. In your childhood, when your mother slapped you for some deed of neighbour's boy, didn't you feel insulted? Didn't you feel like protesting by throwing your breakfast plate or shouting and crying loudly. It's the same with Hindu organisations. But, be careful as to this is the elder brother in the house. If he breaks out, as we saw in Gujarat. Hindus were purposely tried to be humiliated, by attacking the bogie of Karsevaks. Insulting the majority can lead to dangerous consequences. For those accusing Hindus for mass violence, should first stop calling, 93 Mumbai blasts as reaction for Babri destruction. If that was a reaction, then this one certainly was far more expected, though not justified. Babri destruction, didn't kill anyone, but still, its repurcussions were humongous, then this well planned attack on Sabarmati Express (which was termed as Short Circuit by Chalu Prasad Yadav appointed committee. I still wonder, how does short circuit automatically locks all the bogie doors from inside. The history of the Justice Banerjee was discussed sometime back on same blog.) was bound to produce such results with decades of oppressed Hindu sentiments.

5. The attacks on churches.
The times have become desperate. Everyday, there is a news of Bombings, be it anywhere, right from London to Madrid, Iraq, Afghanistan and Pakistan. Kashmir and Mumbai are experts in witnessing bombings and absorbing the after effects. Yet, continuous appeasement of Minorities by Congress led government continue. The relatives of terrorists are awarded with compensations. The forceful conversions by Christian missionaries being neglected. The convents given free hand in teaching religiously toned education. And suddenly a long time social worker cum belonging to a Hindu organisation, working in a mass converted area in Orissa is killed by someone. An already oppressed Hindu community retaliates in rage. The only enemy he could have was the missionaries and the Churches are made targets. Crowd has a different psychology. Many in the crowd do not know why they are doing what they are doing? Such times become a free ground for personal revenges. The attacks on the churches were not justified and I condemn them to the fullest, as do I the attempts by Hindus in preparing the bombs. But, equally condemned should be the act of Convents to observe a Bandh to protest the attacks on churches. Who gave them right to observe such Bandh, when majority of students in their institutes aren't catholic and may not want the Bandh in first place? Why aren't the Convents closed in protest of Akshardham attack or Jama Masjid attack? Why were Shivsena BJP fined for observing a nationwide Bandh and not the Convents? Isn't this Communal behaviour my friend.

I think I have answered most of the questions raised by Independent thinkers and Secular thinkers.
After advocating the case for Hindus, I want to admit that I am not a thiest completely. I do believe in a superpower, but not exactly the definition of God set by normal people. As did Swatantryaveer Vinayak Damodar Savarkar, I too believe in Hindu as a Political and Social Identity, rather than a religious identity. But, as you see some things are symbols of honour and respect and they form a Social identity for a religious community and thus they do come into my definition of Hinduism.

Finally, The last sentence from my friend led me to write this post.
“A conscience is the price of morality and morality is the essence of civilzation wat is the Hindu civilization today?”
Hindu Civilization is facing mortality in face. See what fear of Mortality can do to a society, a notice from my company. And as for a normal human being goes, Mortality can drive any conscience to the verge of defying Morality. And for that matter, If the Morale is broken of a community(which can be achieved by reiterating your statements over and over again) the Morality and Conscience will cease to exist as Mortality shall prevail the entire community.

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To dilute the intensity of the post...One strange coincidence!
I watched two films yesterday, Russ Meyer's highly violent Faster Pussycat! Kill ! Kill!
and Highly horrifying William Friedkin's The Exorcist. I never knew there was any connection between the movies. One I had downloaded three-four weeks back and the other during this week. But, when i looked for actor's information on Wikipedia, which I generally do, when I like the movie and characters. I found that the trobuled priest in Exorcist, played by Jason Miller, and the teenage girl victim of Kidnap in Faster Pussycat, played by Susan Bernard... were husband and wife once and have a son, who is an American Actor.
strange coincidence!

Being in Milan has thrown me into a cyclone of thoughts. I get to be with myself for long periods of times(though friends frequently drop by for some laptop stuff or Just Like That), I get into more of world affairs from the western point of view, which is strictly 'Western', but yet is presented so sincerely and seriously, that you almost end up believing their side of the story. Indian News Dogs(Some Internet news trackers are called NewsHounds, I think there is some relation) have a lot to learn from them. Thinking alone makes you sometimes reach your innermost feelings about anything. You tend to be more honest. At least you feel the need to be honest with yourself.
When I hear the news, or I read the news on the internet or in the e-paper I receive, I react immediately to myself. Sometimes, if the reaction is impossible to be held to myself, I try to convey it to some of my close friends(of course diluted) and then the futility of the process strikes me. I react, but I can't do anything more than that. I try to convey it to people, but people look unconcerned. Then I try to think over it alone and feel suffocated and next step is of course the blog, but some tommorow's “Yuppies” have issues with the length of the posts, hell, the intention for writing is killed. I sometimes wonder, how the hell is our country even pretending to be World's Emerging Superpower? Maybe its just a carrot shown by Westerner's for tapping into our potentially good market. But what is Market exactly? Who buy the goods? Cities? Towns? The families buying such goods generally give good educations to their kids. Kids get educations in Private schools or convents(which can keep the school shut in condemn of attakcs on churches, anytime they want and don't bother a Hindu-Muslim riot and still not be called “Communal”) The reason they don't enroll their kids in government schools? They suck. Why do they suck, because good teachers don't go there. Why good teacher's don't go there? Because, either Government schools have quota backlogs or “Settingwala” appointments. Moreover, as more kids don't go to school and only those who don't afford private schools go there, the results are generally neglected. The results of these school don't matter to affluent classes and they continue ruining the educational system unknowingly as all the “games” continue inside government schools. The private school children do come to Government higher educational institutes, as they still maintain good standards. But, there is a catch. Due to loads of private schools and their good results(!). The number of seats in government or government-aided higher education institutes are not enough, thus private colleges with no aid are allowed to operate with whatever fees they want. Again, the affluent children who are not-so-bright prefer the second option and get the degrees with ease. This time they knowingly ruin the educational system. In this entire process, they have been isolated supremely from the government. As you can see, their entire education is independent of the government. Moreover, the private colleges are owned by those sitting in the government. The affluents are detached from the society and their detachment becomes complete, with townships like Amby Valley. The township with its own private schools, hospitals, roads and electricity plant. No government interference. The grown up children, find it difficult to adjust in the hostile environments out of their city lives. They find themselves alienated. Their parents have money, they send them abroad to study. They love the lifestyles there and neglecting the different treatment, decide to settle their, cursing their own government. In the process, forgetting their own alienation from the government has lead the leaders to believe no interference from their side.
The common people dream of going someday out of country. Going out of country is great for your personal experience and development as a person, but settling out of country is treason. I feel ashamed of the fact that when I hear some acquaintance has settled abroad, I think of him as lucky. And next moment I curse myself for thinking such a thing. Why, why are we seeing this day, that people are striving to settle outside? Why are we having people that do nothing but curse the leaders? Why are we full of clones that are going to be nothing but “Yuppies”? And why are we full of such striving to be “Yuppies”? Why have we lost that respect and honour for our country? Why are we wasting our energies in fighting within? Why we don't want to look at things seriously? Why do we regard Westerners as more sofisticated than us and why we feel their manners are manners and ours are traditions? When will we come out of it? When will we proudly accept to ourselves that we are lucky to be Indians and When will we make the world to look up to us?
Thinking alone makes me face these questions everyday. Maybe, thinking-sorry-acting may give me answers someday!

Note- Yuppies is Young Urban Professionals.

The unforgettable Emperor of Roman Empire who fiddled while Rome burnt, has reincarnated. This time he decided to be born in India. He then saw that there is no empire as such, they have something called as democracy here, so what he did was to be a part of everyone who rules. So like “Kali”(As in Kaliyug) he entered every Political leader's soul. And now after a long turmoil and hidden actions, we can see his presence as vivid as a feature film.
1.There are some villages remote to any of the metro. There are some poor farmers and moreover they are untouchables. Savkars suck them of their money by cheating them in the chalans and old peanut debts, snatch their lands and exploit everything including women. Sick of all this, the farmers start commiting suicides. Away from all this in the Capital New Delhi, the Finance Minister and Prime Minister alongwith the imported Congress President, pat each other's back over the sharp rise in development rate and a surge in Stock Market long way away from both the village and New Delhi-in Economic Capital Mumbai.
2.There are same such villages in a state called Maharashtra and same suicides happen. There happens to be a senior reporter preparing a repot over the suicides of farmers and he writes in his reports about the suicides being maximum in Maharashtra. The Government of Maharashtra appoints a one member committee consisting of a Vice Chancellor of renouned University also happening to be from a formerly untouchable family. He does some statistics and proves that if we equate the suicides according to the total population of states, the suicide rate in Maharashtra is well below others. Again the rulers and the Vice Chancellor pat each others backs and long way away, there happens to be one more suicide and followed by one more rape.
3.The Prime Minister, the Imported Congress President and her aspiring PM son talk radically about the farmer's suicides and even the Yuvraj son visits one or two widows in the affected area. He even talks about them in the Parliament, though in an utterly irrelevant way and also addresses them as 'Miss'. They also allot a package for them and claim to have implemented it alongwith state government which is ironically of their own party. Rather they prove their claim with help of a one man committee report and again pat each other's backs. Long way away, the package amount for the widow is snatched by her brother-in-law, she is then tortured, raped and then made a toy for the entire village to play with whenever they wish to. Lawmakers and protectors party in wake of their victory and humanity burns.
4.Major states in the country face the problem of drought. Big cities face huge power cuts. Large amount of foodgrains seems to go waste and Government party and Opposotion party fight on a deal that would get a mere 8% rise in electricity production after 20 years with crores and crores of investments. Both sides wage a bitter word war. Governing party reconciles with formerly estranged but seasoned pimps and huge deals are brokered finally Government survives the trust vote. The deal with United States would be done. Government party celebrates, the “profite” change-side M.P.s celebrate and democracy and people's faith burns.
5.Serial Blasts strike Bangalore, Ahmedabad, Jaipur, three of biggest cities and Capitals of three major states. The Home Minister(who has lost in the Parliamentary Elections) visits all the places with same straight face and ironed Safari suits and speaks the same words everywhere. Even after long time no one is caught. A particular committee's separatist and hypocrite leaders shout that their community is purposely targetted and due to fear of losing their votes, no major arrests are done and thus no progress is made. The emails from the Spineless Idiots Mujahidins who aren't single bit Indians(SIMI) get more and more arrogant and finally they strike the Capital. Home minister walks in, visits in tight security. And surprisingly in three visits in a day, he changes three safari suits and gives the same byte to news channel dogs. Same speeches by everyone including PM. Nothing will be done. Leaders will change their suits and salute the affected city's spirit. But the Humanity and People's security burns.

I am loving this. Everyday, I reach office and open Newspaper, I see a news regarding Raj Thackerey and his party's heroics. In response there is some complimentary stuff from Shivsena. And I have newly discovered, that if these two entities accidentally forget about their jobs, certain individuals, who are Brand Ambassadors of the formers' nemesis, make it a point to provoke them. The result, everyone gets ample publicity. Raj Thackerey gets his position affirmed as 'Marathi Maseeha(or Messiah)'(Though he is Maseeha only to Jobless, needy and frustrated Marathi Youth, deprived of proper leadership and derive evil satisfaction from beating Misguided North Indian youth, who despite their families depending on them indulge in unnecessary dirty political activities under guidance from their millionaire leaders settled in Maharashtra), Shivsena gets to crib about how Raj Thackerey has stolen the issue that is original to them(though Shivsena has been continuously in power in Mumbai Municipal Corporation since their first mention of 'Marathi' issue and was in Power in State for Five Years and was a part of Alliance in Power in Centre for five years and yet were unsuccessful in giving this issue its final destination. Interestingly, Raj was a part of their fold for all those years. But, hey I hear them cribbing that their power in Centre and State meagrely coincided. Though, Fool of me to not understand this fact's relation to the issue.) and most importantly, The Brand Ambassadors of UP(“Bhaiyya, UP mein Dum hai..kyunki Jurm yahan Kam hai...” Boy, I am still searching for the writer of this line to write me a Tagline for my Blog and Website. What creativity man? Hats off.) Amitabh Bachchan and Family are getting what they need the most, 'Free Publicity' – they have two big films lined up, first, the father starrer something about Lear and second, the son starrer Superhero flick.
You know what, when I was small, I used to think about how the Seas have formed and why there are mountains. The answer I learned over the period of time was, when there is a crest, there is bound to be a trough somewhere. Now, take the latest case. I discussed, what everyone gained, here lies the catch, someone's gotta lose something. Now, who is that someone and what is something, that he is losing?

That someone is we the people. And we are losing the most precious thing, which binds us with all these famous people. The thing is 'Trust'. The entire business is robbing us of our trust. We don't know whom to trust. We tend to be above all, whereas we are directly connected to each and every consequence of this. It is we, who are going to pay taxes, which rest finally in the treasuries of these politicians. It is we, who are going to pay for the tickets of these much hyped and mostly crap movies. And It is we who are gonna suffer from the misguided, jobless youth, or It is we, who will be one of them. And if unfortunately, we are one of them, then it is again we, who are going to land in jail and spoil our lives, whereas the leaders would peacefully sit in the private screening rooms of their posh bungalows and enjoy the same movies with costly liquor.

Who knows, this all may just be an understanding of all of them, since now I hear Shivsena has attacked Shahrukh for calling himself Delhiwalla. Maybe 'Rab ne Bana di Jodi' has something to do with all this.

Writing that all, I strictly am a Marathi supporter, and I do rubbish the statements made by Jaya Bachchan. But I want to neglect them considering the purpose behind them should be negated. And hey, did I warn about at least understanding Marathi well, if you want to stay in Mumbai? If no, then the 'M' can also be for Mukka (Punch!)

P.S. I was also plannig to write some interesting views of some of my friends regarding the National Language V/s Regional Languages feud, but seems it needs a special post. So can be expected in a few days.